It happens…Crap, I mean.  And it doesn’t have to be anything dramatic like death and cancer. 

About 1 month ago, I started to feel crappy.  I could not say why exactly.  Most people close to me would not have guessed this state of mind, except for my hubby.  He could follow the revealing trail of empty Kleenex boxes and Almond M&M bags. 

It was the strangest thing. 

This morning, I was listening to my Abraham-Hicks CD (Abraham-Hicks.com) and they were saying:"There is nothing more irritating for a teacher than to have no one to teach!  And yet, you need to let your students come to you".  Quite true, this is.   

See, I have the gift of healing (…as we all do, but I’m just more aware of mine than most people).  I can bring relief to people who suffer.  Instantly.  Now you feel pain, now you don’t!  And yet, no one will let me into an emergency room or a cancer ward where my talents could actually be useful to massive amounts of people who are in pain or flat out dying.  And although there is nothing wrong with dying, a lot of times it could be made a lot more comfortable or avoided all together.

For the past month, I have suffered from being a teacher with a smallish group of students, and a healer with a smallish group of patients.  It’s not so much that I hunger for crowds.  And since my healing work is free, I obviously don’t do it for the money.  But I KNOW how many people are hurting, compared to how many are coming to me so they can feel better.  That ratio is pretty staggering.

So I felt crappy.  It’s hard to focus on the little good you are doing, when you compare it to the huge good you could be doing, given favorable circumstances. 

But crap is like anything else: Eventually it passes.  We cannot stop the flow of life, although we can slow it down significantly.  But in the end, our own fundamental nature takes over and we move on. 

I don’t know where this is all going.  But in the meantime, I choose to do what I can with what I have and not worry about what I could be doing if I had more.

In love

Elise

Intuition