Even though well-being is our natural state of being, it sure doesn’t feel that way.  It seems to be so much easier to feel bad.  It’s all around us, pervasive and persistent.   We’re thought to feel guilty if we  get angry.  We’re thought to take care of others while ignoring our own needs.  We’re thought to settle because dreams don’t come true.  We’re taught that Money is the epitamy of happiness and we should always, always choose it above all else, including feeling better. 

That last one is the hardest for me to see. 

Because I can feel most people, I can feel most of my clients.  Even those who have never scheduled a sessions with me but who are AWARE of me.  And on a daily basis, people pop into my mind who could  use my help to feel better.  Meaning people that I am certain I could help, given the chance.

And yet, I also see the choice these people are making: they choose to think that they can’t afford it.  Really?  Yes.  That used to boggle my mind.  I used to think it was because I was too expensive.  But I started to offer sessions for $29, and STILL I was getting the same images in my mind and people telling me they couldn’t afford it.  So I took it one step further and offered healing services for FREE.  Guess what?  It didn’t make a difference. 

So I realized it was not the amount of money that mattered.  It was a more fundamental issue.  We are thought to choose Money over Happiness on a daily basis…      

I am not saying this doesn’t make sense.  Of course it does.  Money is a means to get what you want, so the more money you have, the more you can easily get what you want.  Right.  But what if the reason why we’re not getting what we want has NOTHING to do with the lack money?   What if money is a HUGE RATIONALIZATION to explain why we won’t allow ourselves the happiness we so desire? 

This thought hit me a few months ago.  I was making 120K a year and I was still WAITING to be happy.  I had my reasons all lined up: When the mortgage is paid, when the cars are paid, when the house is updated, when we have a vacation home, when, when, when.  Now granted, I was able to choose being happy more often than when I was a struggling college student.  But in the end, it was the fundamental choice that kept me under the flotation line…When given the opportunity, I would choose to make/save money over being happy.  And you know what the worst part is?  I didn’t even realize it!

I felt good at work.  I loved my co-workers.  My work was fun and entertaining.  I made more money than anyone I know.  I could see nothing wrong with my life.  Except that one itsy-bitsy tiny thing…I was very tired, especially around 3:00pm.  It would usually last about  2 hours and it was totally inexplicable.

You’d think that doing the work I do (as a professional intuitive), I’d be quicker to notice in myself patterns that I see in my clients.  I know what it means when someone comes to me with this tired feeling.  And yet I was skipping right along, totally ignoring the signs.

In hindsight, it’s all clear now.  I was piling up reasons to be happy (money being at the top of the pile) while ignoring the fact that I actually wasn’t.  That will make anyone tired, because it’s a lot of work to keep yourself from seeing the truth that is within.

In the end, God/Universe solved the problem for me.  It threw me out of that job and into what I really wanted to do.  Just for good measure, I was offered a job in engineering again this week.  And for the first time I realized that even though I could make a lot of money, it would not make me happy.  On the contrary, it would make me very very very tired…

So this time I did take my own advice.  I turned down the job.   Then I threw away all my reasons for delaying happiness and bought a big screen TV

In love
Elise
www.EliseLebeau.com

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