I have been coughing for almost 3 weeks now.  And not the kind of polite cough that you can hide behind your hand either.  It’s the full blown I-am-about-to-cough-up-my-lung type.  It keeps me up at night (and everyone else in the house), it interrupts every sentences I speak, it’s everywhere.

I remember a while back I met someone who had never heard of the kind of work I do (i.e. Professional Intuitive).  I describes it to her and gave her a little example with her own life.  Her jaw dropped from the accuracy of what I was describing about her.  And then she said: "It must be so nice to always know everything about your own life.  You’re so lucky!".  I could have punched her in the face, had I been the violent type.

It wasn’t her fault, really.  How could she have possibly known that my own life is the ONLY thing that I can’t see through.  I know more about the problems of a stranger I cross in the street than my own.  This is the most annoying thing (and pretty much the only one) about my work.  It’s like working at a French bakery that has a strict policy forbidding employees to eat any pastries.  I hand them out to hungry people all day but I don’t get to take any home with me.

One of the reasons why I can’t do a session for myself easily is
that I forget everything I say in a session.  My own consciousness gets
out of the way to make room for whatever is needing to be said right
now.  As a side effect, I don’t recall a word.  I used to think I was
having early Alzheimer until I realized it only happened with
sessions.  It seemed unlikely that the disease could be that selective.

Although, to be fair (and this is one of these cases where I am so pissed that I don’t really want to be fair), knowing how to use my intuition ensures that I have very few problems in my life in the first place.  Because I am aware of my inner compass, I can steer clear of 90% of problematic situations.  But it’s the last 10% that bugs me right now.

Which brings me back to the cough.  I have been coughing like a maniac, knowing quite well that this is not a physical problem (there’s no infection either) and yet unable to figure this out.  Energy Healing is not helping because this is the kind of symptoms that is not caused by stagnant energy.  Meaning that my body is doing this on purpose, like an alarm going off to let you know your house is on fire.  There is no point in silencing the alarm before you figure out where the fire is located.

But after weeks of frustration, I finally had an idea. 

I asked my husband if he could help me get some answers.  I told him what I wanted to know, he asked me questions about it and then told me everything I said.  This is how I figured out that my coughing was a nasty fifth chakra issue (between the head and the heart).  I also have a list of 5 things I can do to help resolve this.  I can’t tell you how delighted I am to be on the other side of the table, finally.   

I have often heard that people who do the kind of work I do often cannot see their own lives clearly.  It used to feel ironic.  Or even mean.  Now that I have found a way around this, I realize how much it represents our inner world, as it should: How much easier is it to help another than to allow ourselves to be helped?  As such, I spend my day helping solve other people’s problems, but yet was stuck when it came to my life. 

Money is usually used as the biggest excuse to avoid getting help.  And yet, if the choice was clearly laid before us, would we really choose to keep our money as opposed to feel better by getting help? Everyday, I see people who KNOW that I can help them (meaning that I have helped them before or they know my skills to be what they need) and yet tell themselves that they would rather hold on to their money than feeling better and know how to solve their problem. 

The funny thing is that they would part from their money if it was used to help their children, their spouse or their parents.  It’s not spending the money that triggers the problem.  It’s spending the money on themselves, so that they can feel better.

And yes, this is related to my coughing problem.  Because I could not use the excuse of money to hold myself apart from choosing to feel better, as I could hardly charge myself for a session…That’s why I call money an excuse : in absence of a money problem, we make up something else!  So instead of having the money excuse, I came up with the fact that I cannot recall my own sessions to keep myself away from feeling better while helping others on a daily basis.  Ick.

So today I choose to hold myself in alignment with feeling good and getting help every time I need it, no excuses.  And I hope you will be inspired to do so as well.  There is nothing else I wish for you.   

In love
Elise Lebeau, M.Sc.
Professional Intuitive

Intuition